LONG LIVE DEAD ’90s DREAMS.
"In a Wonderland they lie, Dreaming as the days go by, Dreaming as the summers die:
Ever drifting down the stream- Lingering in the golden gleam- Life, what is it but a dream?”
"If you want to keep a secret, you must also hide it from yourself."
Noah, I’m scared that I’m dying
How have you been? Or where
have you been?
There are weird spots on my tongue
and I’m convinced it’s cancer.
I haven’t thrown up in two days
but I also haven’t really eaten.
I’ll count it as a victory.
Noah, I’ve got that pain in my chest
that feels like a heart attack,
but you’re not here to keep me calm.
You weren’t last time, either, but
I can’t go to the hospital
by myself, again.
The way they look at me
makes me feel worse.
Noah, it’s just anxiety. I’m not
dying, but my throat hurts and
I can’t stop coughing.
I’m not dying. I’m not.
Noah, what’s your last name again?
I want to send you a postcard
from Jersey, just so you know
how good you’ve got it. Wherever
If I take a deep breath, I can
hear the wheezing in my chest.
I’m not dying, but I must be if
I’m so afraid that I am.
Noah, will you come melt
my bones and take me to the
If they tell me I’m making all
of this up, I’ll rip my hair out.
I’ll kiss them.
If This World Were Mine - Tim White